It’s 4am and my boyfriend and I were texting and he just confessed to a slip from about 1 week ago. He had used adderall and got kicked out of the recovery halfway house he was at for three days. He stayed with me one night but my roommate didn’t want him there so he went to stay with a friend the next night. He just told me that night that he used Fentanyl (just that one time) and got caught up with the police and has an upcoming court date for it. After his 3 days were up he went back to recovery and has been sober since.
I don’t know how to cope with this slip. I told him that I was proud of him for finding himself back in recovery and having the strength and courage to do so. But deep down I’m feeling so heartbroken. I’m feeling regretful for not having him stay at my apartment even though my roommate was against it. (I know that I shouldn’t blame myself but I feel like this wouldn’t have happened if I just let him stay-it was a rough night for both of us with him leaving). I’m also very upset that he didn’t tell me about his slip sooner. He has lied to me again and again about little details that clearly didn’t add up.
I’m moreso just venting and trying to sort my thoughts. But I do want to know how to deal with this slip. His life is so difficult and it’s affecting me.