It’s been a while since I posted here. I miss the support. It’s been a rough week for me. My SO has repeatedly betrayed my trust. His drug of choice is alcohol but since he’s been in recovery porn and using instagram for self pleasure started to become an issue. He’d lie to me about it or try and hide it from me. So we went to our counselor and he talked to my SO about being overly transparent and sharing more than he thinks he needs to. Anyways my SO works in a restaurant and he told me that he needed to go to a spirit tasting to show he’s invested in the restaurant. I expressed how I felt this was not something I agreed with and tried to call bullshit. Anyways he went anyways promising me that he wouldn’t even have a glass infront of him. Then when he gets back he tells me it was a blind tasting and he shouldn’t have gone…and fails to mention that he smelled the spirits as part of the event. He could have left when he realized it wasn’t good for him but instead he takes it to the next level and smells the alcohol and I only find out after I probe him. And then he says oh well I didn’t think it was a big deal. I am just so sick of him doing shit like this that make us have to live on the edge it’s like if he doesn’t perceive it as a challenge he’ll up the anti to test himself. I know a lot of you are going through so much more and this probably sounds ridiculous. I just am tired of him hanging out with people who drink all the time and convincing himself he had to put himself in situations that could seriously compromise his sobriety and our relationship. I don’t know how to handle this.