Hello to anyone reading this post. It’s been a long 2 years with my addict (some good, a lot of bad). I met him while he was 5 years sober, or so he says. I later found out he had several “slip-ups” in that time period. But we were still new and I was in that giddy phase. We got along great and had similar interests. A few months later and I finally saw what it meant to date a recovering drug addict. A few more months later and it was debilitating. I was lying for him to cover up stories, enabling him (without knowing what that was), and going in a downwards spiral with my personal life. My work and family life were severely affected. He went into rehab (not his first time but it was all new to me). He came out saying he felt great and I believed him. 5 months later he relapsed, which I know is very common. He didn’t want to go to rehab but instead went to a detox center. After detox he wanted to go to a halfway house. It’s been two weeks since that point and I’m struggling mentally to keep up. I don’t trust him (after all the lies and stealing) which makes me constantly on edge. I feel like I can’t let my guard down and that’s debilitating. I feel like he is completely dependent on me (I know that’s bad). I struggle everyday with the thought of staying with him or leaving. How can you have a long-lasting life with someone you don’t trust? Recovering addicts deserve to have happy lives too so am I not being supportive enough? I’m so exhausted. I don’t know what to do.