I just hit a breaking point this evening. I feel like so much of this life is about him and what helps him feel better/optimistic/more confident. I feel like I have been tirelessly pouring energy into being encouraging and uplifting, and i feel like it’s for nothing. He still comes home drunk 4/7 days of the week. He still hides and lies and gaslights.
When he’s sober, everything is amazing, and I feel like those memories have been carrying me through these dark days. I am trying to be in tune to my own needs, especially mental-health-wise, but today I feel drained. He is downstairs watching a movie, and honestly, I might just go to bed (it’s only 8:30 right now.) I am just so sick of pouring so much effort when it doesn’t seem like he’s even trying.
Has anyone else found anything that really helps in this case?