I am new here and still learning how to navigate things. My partner/boyfriend left for rehab 4 days ago after a 10+ year long drug addiction. We have been living 3 years. I am from Australia - Victoria where we are currently in stage 4 covid lockdown restrictions so now his gone, I am feeling much more isolated and alone. Cant see friends, family or even just go to the shops.
Each day I feel like I am going through a different emotion, sometimes I miss him, Im proud, I’m sad and sometimes I’m angry, angry at him. After being here and reading a lot of stories on this forum, I realised that I am in my own recovery - Im recovering from being in a toxic relationship with an addict. What I’m finding hard is healing myself and the hurt I have, while trying my best to be there for him and to be consistently positive and happy when he calls. I don’t want to fight or to put any sort of negative pressure on him, but I am beginning to find that hard as the days go by. Ive been nothing but happy and supportive to him since his gone, but I’m worried/hoping my own emotions and struggles don’t get in the way of that.
So far, this this forum has helped a lot and its helpful knowing that people have been or are going through similar situations.