Quitness and distancing from my boyfriend who is a recoverying alcohol abuser

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My boyfriend of 2 Years and 7months and the father of my beautiful 4 month daughter is in rwcovery for alcohol abuse. Towards the middle of are relationship i noticed that his level of drinking began to pick up it got to the point where it became uncomfortable for him health wise. I told him about the drinking I told him that it would be between myself and the alcohol and he said he choose me and his drinking did slow down or so I thought. I found out i was pregnant in October 2018 it was the happiest day of our lives. 2 days after i got fired from my job he also was unemployed at the time. As time went on I began to get depressed and became angry most of my anger was dirwcted towards him anytime he would come around I would argue with him and pressure him about given me money he did the best he can I developed PPA but I didnt know and I keep my emotions to myself. Ibsaid some untrue words to him and he did to me i became angry and didnt call him when our daughter was born because i was angry and I assumed he didnt want nothing to do with us. But i was wrong 2 days after she was born he came to see me and i blew up on him after i calmed down he came and talked to me he told me he over dosed himself and was in the hospital when i was having her at the time i acted like i didnt care because of the Post Partum. 2 weeks afyer my daughter was born I began to feel a little normal and we started are relationship again. I said something to him averagely didnt know how sensitive he would be and he took it to heart and end the relationship but i apoligized and he came back about a month and a half later he left the relationship again me not knowing he being so sensitive about me taking a family trip he didnt want me and the baby to go on because he was not able to go. For abut a month we were arguing i was pleading with him but he was angry at me dodnt want to talk to me or see the baby so i left abd take a trip he still was angry wouldnt talk to me or the baby he had stop going to his alcohol counselling but was liein to me he was i was informed from his mother that he relapsed and overdose when he came to he apologized about everything about the way he acted and the mean things he said his reason for being so was the way I was during the pregnancy and after the Post Partum he couldnt handle it because of the way his mind made him feel from the over dose. He said he thought i didnt love him but he now see that I do.

Its been almostva momth sincere where back together and he tells me he loves me and says he wants his family. But he acts completely different his personality is different he dont talk much abd he acts sucluded i have spoke to himnabout it and he says its ntn. I have read alot of articles on behavioral differences in rwcovery addicts abd he has alot of them. Everyday becaus ehe dosent talk that much anymore am afraid that hes cheating or he wants to leave me again. Could it just be his brain because of the mental breakdown and the alcohol chemicals leaving his body.

My question is how do I support him and let him.no I am here? How do I also let go the fear of him leaving again and not getting better?

A little depressed and afraid not good enough for him to stop his addiction
I started treating myself and my baby girl to new hair styles manicure and pedicures also going out on date nights